Okay, last time didn't work. I don't remember how well we did at trying on the right days. I think we did if I remember right. So this month, we did on one day. But it was the "right" day. Maybe. Patric and I have had a discussion that January is our month to start trying. Secretly I am not counting this month out. It's possible. And if so, I'll find out Christmas day.

anticipation

I have zits. On my face...several. It's not BAD, but it's mroe than a couple. I have one on my shoulder. wtf? Hopefully....hopefully this means....still waiting....

A little scheming

So I bought an ovulation kit for the first time ever. Yeah, after 6 pregnancies. Doesn't make sense, huh? Don't think getting pregnant is a problem, right? Well, I've always, ALWAYS been oblivious to my body. Until pregnant with Chase, I never felt like I knew what was going with me. With that pregnancy, though, I felt as though I knew what was going on (or if SOMETHING was going on) with every organ inside me. I swear I can feel my ovaries sometimes laying in bed. I don't know what it all is and I definitely don't know what it means but I am much more in tune than I ever was.
I started peeing on ovulation sticks and low and behold, I didn't ovulate until the 6th (out of 7) sticks. Hmmm. That means I must ovulate around day 15 or 16. That's nice to know. It's always been a guessing game in the past. A hit or miss, anytime between 7-14 days. No wonder it's always taken us several months to get pregnant.
I felt I needed to buy this test this time becuase I don't have time for those guessing games. I don't have the luxury of blindly hoping and wishing every month that I don't start my period. I need to be on target if we are going to do this again. I never EVER wanted to be pregnant in my 40s and really that isn't an option for me. I talk to myself over and over again about the state of our affairs. Is our family complete? Or isn't it? The answer seems to be the latter. And thus, we have talked about it and are officially TTC.

Never have we ever been practical. Yet dear sweet Patric decided that we should be this time. But on Day 16. He caught onto my sexual aggressiveness this last week and a half. Wow. Apparently he didn't think about it the first 5 times. But on the 6th time, the bull's eye on my calendar, he decided to be practical. "A due date near our September busy time is not a good idea." Well, okay. You're probably right. But are you sure you don't want to just go do it one more time?

He held his own. I'll give him that. Didn't budge....on that 16th day anyway. Who knows, though. We'll wait and see...