I have been feeling nauseous the last 4 or 5 days. My boobs are starting to hurt. I do have some zits. My skin is real oily. I've been a little gassy, nothing too bad.
I think about this little bean all the time. I am so excited and I know this time is going to go extremely fast. But I am so very scared, too. I am scared the pregnancy won't last. Once we hear the heartbeat, I am scared it will stop beating and we won't get to the 2nd trimester. I called the dr. office today and left a message. I am hoping to get in for an appointment some time before we go camping.
I mentioned the zits because zits always mean it's a boy for me. I was worried because at first I didn't have any. I know Patric wants a boy. Then I got the zits and think it could possibly be a boy. Who knows! But then....I want a boy so bad...for Patric and for Reese. Karly wants a little brother, too. I would love to have a little boy. But what I really want is Chase. I want Chase and then I want this baby to be a girl. I want a little girl so bad. But I want a boy because I really really wanted a boy last time. I don't know what to think. I think I won't think about it because I just want this baby to be healthy and that's what I will be praying for the entire pregnancy. I just want a little boy and I want a little girl. Both. But I want the little boy to be Chase. My little Chase. Chase who should be a year and 2 months right now. I miss him so bad. I ask him to help me through this pregnancy like he did when he was in my tummy. I know he will. I can feel his love wrapped around me. I miss him so much.
You have big shoes to fill little one!