It makes my heart stop each time Reese says, "I hope we get to bring this baby home." I hate that he knows differently. I hate that it is not "normal" for him to see mom go through pregnancy, get excited, visit mom and baby in the hospital and bring him home...and then grow up with him. It used to really bother me when he would say, "I don't have anyone to play with" because I knew that Chase would have been able to by now. Now, I just hate it when he says that. I suppose that will always be for the youngest in the family.....maybe I just wasn't ready for Reese to be the youngest. And if we are lucky, he won't be....
About Me
- Christy
- This is my blog where I will be writing about my life as it happens. I am married to my best friend, my confident, my soulmate. We have 2 girls, then a boy, all healthy pregnancies, healthy babies. Then on April 14, 2009, our fourth baby was damaged during labor and delivery. I do not understand why this happened to us, we did everything we thought we were supposed to do. We love each other, we love ourselves, and we love our children more than anything. Chase would have only enhanced what we already had. But instead of being in our arms, he is in our hearts, in our minds and in our souls, deeply embedded, walking this road of life with us in another form. We are all different people, trying to learn how to be a family this way. But I am the luckiest girl in the world to have what I have. I just happen to be one of the unluckiest, too, for having been dealt this tragedy.
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